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Sometimes being a mom is hard. Sometimes it does come naturally and easily, but usually it is just hard. In fact, its the hardest thing I've ever done.
I realize that it is sooooo important, and ultimately the most incredibly rewarding thing i could do with my life, but it is hard to see it through temper-tantrums, the constant changing of dirty diapers, never-ending piles of laundry and dishes, and whiney voices. It is hard to find a lot of significance in the day to day things, but I guess that those are the same things that ultimately make the difference.
If only I could step back and see the whole picture, I might gain some perspective. I am sooooooo grateful for the gospel, it gives me little bits of perspective here and there. Without it, I dont think I could continue doing what I do everyday (Id probably send my kids to daycare, go back for RN licensing and start working). I love my kids, I just wish some days it were easier to like them.

Sorry about this post, Ill probably delete it later. I just needed a release!